So. It’s been a while, huh?
I don’t have a weigh in, just a list of excuses to share. Life has been hectic, work has been crazy, the usual.
Recently, it came to my attention, through massive anxiety, that lately, perhaps, I have bitten off more than I can chew in this little thing called life. Work has been busy – I have been teaching as much as I want to, I have been working away learning my new role at Oxford, and business has been really good with Jonesie’s Just Desserts. Part of the problem with work is that come Friday night, after a long week of teaching, education director-ing, and supply shopping / cake planning, I just want to relax. But Friday nights and Saturdays are when the majority of Jonesie’s stuff happens, since most people have their parties on Saturdays and Sundays. I can’t complain that work is busy. The working has helped to take away some financial anxiety, but has replaced it with the feeling of never having any time to myself.
Of course, as is always the way, there is some stuff going on with the family life too. I’m not going to get into the nitty gritty on here, because I have a limit of what personal information I will and will not share, and it is not my information to share with the world. I am not directly impacted by the situation, but being an innocent bystander has it’s moments of stress and anxiety too.
Another issue I have been having is at home. I like the house that I live in, but it has its issues. It is not as new as I would like for it to be, and while our home is only eight years old, the previous tenants treated it like crap, and so it looks far older than that. There are walls that need to be scrubbed, there are bathrooms I would love to paint, and carpets that I would love to steam clean. I have some organizing that I need to do as well. Minor things, but they all add up in my head and I get stressed out even more. When my home is in upheaval, my world is in upheaval. I am used to my home being my haven – a place where I can come and sit and feel stress-free because it is clean, and organized, and just the way I like it. I know it seems silly to be anxious about not having been able to scrub some walls, but to me, it’s a big deal.
On top of that, it is very close to the one year anniversary of my father’s passing away. It has been on my mind constantly for the past month or so, and I think the stress of that is contributing as well.
I am currently feeling a little overwhelmed with all of this and a little more, and the weight loss has taken a back seat to coping with everything else. I’ve been drinking pop. I’ve been eating fast food – much more than I’d care to admit. I’ve been eating easy comfort foods, and not taking the time to plan and make good choices. The idea of having to do that is causing me greater stress, since it is just one more thing I have to do.
So with that being said, I have decided to take a little break. I still intend to watch what I eat, and am trying very hard not to comfort the stress with food. In December, I will be focusing on making ME sane and organized and stress free, and will be right back to the blog and the active attempt at weight loss come January. This doesn’t mean that December will be a free-for-all – that would just stress me out too. I would like to report a loss in my first blog post of the new year. At the very least, I would like to report a stayed the same. I will be taking a short break from Jonesie’s Just Desserts in January, and possibly February too. I normally take a break and start to miss it, so it will depend on when that feeling starts to kick in. I will be off work for two weeks, and in that time, I’m going to focus on getting myself organized and in the right mindset to handle all of the crazy that seems to work its way into my world.
So, to positive mental health, until next time,